It traverses the emotional landscapes of my experiences as a sexual assault survivor and hopes to begin bridging the gap in understanding left behind by quantitative research focused on statistics and data and to be a source of hope for those with similar experiences. There remains much research to be done in order to establish unequivocally the occurrence of sexual assault and to advocate for better access to support and for more empathetic understanding toward survivors. This thesis adds to that small volume of research in a qualitative, autoethnographic pursuit, exploring my personal identity as a sexual assault survivor using poetic writing and reflection.